Story Scribble #34I used to hear of a slow drip of bloodStory Scribble #34 by Lapulta
coming from a blade of glass
slipping down your arm
thick and dark.
It sent shivers up my spine and I wondered
why it felt needed.
"Because it feels good."
"Because it looks pretty."
"Because there's nothing there."
I don't wonder any more.
I think, sometimes, about a thin scrape
torn down my own arm:
burgundy against the pale whiteness I hate
Wondering if it has value.
Because the rest of the world is
guilt and loathing and obligations;
and let's face it,
They care, but you're of no value;
you really just fuck shit up.
Existentialism in its most cynical form.
And it turns into hate,
a cold, desperate hate:
You aren't stabbing yourself, you're stabbing
inside whatever frame you got.
"Kill it," the little voice says.
And you do.
Story Scribble #35I'm being selfish stayingStory Scribble #35 by Lapulta
I'm afraid it's true;
It tears me up to leave,
but I can't come home to you.
I don't want to cause you pain,
I don't want to bring more tears,
and sitting here in silence
will get worse off through the years.
I must rip out my heart,
I can't let you get close,
since every time it happens
we both end up morose.
I'll be the adult.
I'll kill my heart and soul,
though I know that in the end
it'll burn like veins of coal.
Take my heart out, World,
it's only fair you do;
take it all in pieces,
or maybe whole's more use to you.
Never dream it's easy
or that it didn't cause me pain
but don't look over your shoulder
since I can't come back again.
My name is LAPULTA. My favorite color is GREEN. And I like
I am a possible GEOSCIENCE major. My hair is BROWN. My eyes are BROWN. And I'm _NOT_ years old enough to tell you how many I have lived~
(I also use OXFORD COMMAS liberally and believe that BAGPIPES make for orgasmic music.)
Most of my fields are rough photography, drawing (digital and traditional), doing scribblings which vary from story ideas to journals to personal angst; poetry, literature, and fanfiction. I like just about any type of art, so whatever ends up in your watch list will probably be startling and odd. However, I have my 'art periods' where I fluctuate from literature to drawing, so be prepared for that. Overall, I just have fun; whatever comes to mind gets popped on here so the people I love can have a good laugh~
I'm also cheeky. And sarcastic.
Miyazaki, Balto, Attack on Titan/SnK, the Walking Dead (game)
39 Clues, Hetalia, Historical Fiction Facts, The Walking Dead (show)